I have long wanted to type this entry out to share with you my thoughts and feelings.. Was very worried over you when I got your sms last Saturday. I'm glad we meet up on Sunday night. Wanted to share with you what I've gone through but I find that it's still so hard for me to say it out even though deep inside I wanted to badly.. It's a secret in my heart and till now I cannot let it go.. So I am very proud of you when you manage to say it out and let things go.. Though I know during this period of time, you will still feel very sad and think of him always.. Trust me, next time you will thank this guy for everything he did to make you grow up, understand what you really need in a guy and do not commit the same mistakes or go through the same hurt again.
I do not blame you or be shock when I read your entry regarding the mos thingy. Because I saw the me in you. I must compliment you for not losing your cool because that's one thing which I am unable to do it in the past during confrontation. I feel so hurt when I read the entry because I know you are suffering because you like him. Though now is the period where you know you still love him after everything that he had done to you, you will need to learn to put the past down and lead your life on. Time is really a factor. Now you must learn to love yourself more and not be like me in the past, indulging in clubs, drinks, toy with guys' feelings. Many a times, I find myself so lonely and sad standing in noisy crowds. That kinda feeling is torturing and sad. I fully believe in karma and I've got it one year plus ago, so I really hope you will learn to treasure yourself. Don't commit the same mistakes as me.
Pick yourself up, be brave and look towards the future. There's someone out there still searching for you to be the one and only one. There is no right or wrong in the things you do. If you believe what you're doing is right, just do it, don't give yourself a chance to regret. Although you may fall hard each time and hurt yourself badly, be glad you go through and learn something out of it. Nobody is to judge you for who you are. Some things which are meant to be gone through, it has to come.
I believe I will see a beta and new huijing in the future. Have faith in yourself! Be strong okay gal! *HUGS*
